So, I owe an apology to everyone that has even remotely cared about me. I know I do, have for a while. I'm just now getting around to it...forgive the delay.

Most, if not all, of you know about Jessica and myself. As you all know, I am a people pleaser....at least to those I care about(i.e.: family, friends, significant others) and I am sad to say that it was used to both mine and all of yours disadvantage. I ended up neglecting all of you and eventually down right ignoring you. That wasn't right of me in the slightest. I realize I should have stood up for myself long, long ago, but unfortunately my desire to please got in the way and I ended up bending to her will. Entirely my fault, I would say. I really do regret letting things get as out of hand as they have, and losing just about everyone, if I already haven't.

Now, I AM trying to salvage anything that I can of my friendships. I HAVE talked to Jessica about this. It ended up in several fights, some tears, her almost leaving me, and some manipulation. BUT I did set my foot down and she shouldn't stop me from talking to or being around you all. I have already tried talking to some of you about all of this, and have been at least heard out and given another shot by most. Some prefer not to talk to me at all, which is fine because I do deserve at least that.

All I'm wanting right now is to know if I can salvage my friendships with you all after everything I've put you through? I know you feel like I pretty much abandoned you all or traded you in, but I can assure you that was not what I wanted or meant to do, and I honestly can say that I both regret it and am sorrowful of my actions. I apologize, and am deeply sorry. If you can forgive me, will you take me back into your family?

That is all for now. Ciao.